VERY SOON

Very Soon The rain is falling hard. I wonder if I'm ever going to get free from this pain. The one I love has left. Wondering if he will ever come back. Every night and everyday... I think about him, Wishing for him to come back. Wondering if he is thinking about me. BUT i kNow He WoNt come BaCk anymore.....

你不在

一再错身彼此脆弱的时分
如果渴望一个吻的余温
我关了灯黑暗把我拼吞 wo　。。
你不在 当我最需要爱 你却不在 wo　。。
无尽等待像独白的难挨 wo　。。
你不在 高兴还是悲哀 你都不在
我受了伤在偷偷好起来 但你不在 不在

Finally I'm Back!!

Yeah!! I'm back from a boring and relax town...
when the 1st day,
reach perth the weather there was pretty cold, 15 degree!!!
wow, cold!! but shiok!!
it's cold for 2 to 3 days, after those few day was really cold suddenly it turn to 41 degree one day, omg!!! wheather really kill us... wahaha.. we're staying and the city area... but all shop close at 5 pm sharp everyday..
but before 5pm the street was totally Empty...
Omg!! sighs!! Big Time, so Bo bian, we've to go back to ibis hotel rest,
luckly we did bought some wine and vodka peach and cards,
of cos.. actually we've planning to start the games on the 1st nite..
But who knows, i fell asleep in a few second only...
but really enjoy alot in this trip athought is BORING there!!!

i bought back many goodies back...
oh no!! goin to put on weight again..
haha.. hack care!!

suddenly i dun feel leaving...

i also dun know why??? but i must bear to leave tonite ... sighs...

i'm abit blur today!! beening thinking this few day..

last nite after work meet kathy & joyce at bugis for dinner before i'm leaving singapore today, after tat me & joyce headed to 85 market for supper.. we've chat for many many things... and i saw someone face turn "RED" while chatting... haha.. then now i realise how Our Friendship is , but now is ever Stronger!!! then before.. hahaha.. cos i have something which hide from kathy.. but while she talking half-way, she suddenly say the thing out!! opps!! maybe we really understand each other and we know what we're thinking bout!!!

I'm leaving my Dao Tao's, Darling & frens....tonite!!

I'll be back on 23 Feb!! REMEMBER our date on 24 Feb...

I'll be missing u all there..

Tata!!! seeya...

Muack! muack!

Things checked :

memory-card check

ipod-nano check

passport check

everything check check check...

no negative!!

em... how should i start!!

*Cough*cough*

Cos Been complain ,

that i'm always write my boring & sad & past things... in blog!!

haha!! mayb my thinking was too negative!!!!

but i really agree to what they say!!

Mayb from they're view see, they dun wan me to hang-in the past...

Gals, 我明白的!!!

u all dun wish tat i'm getting hurts again!! & wan me to live happy....

but no way!!

i wont allow anyone or wat to harm me and our friendship!!!

and from now start i must not be so negative anymore!!! (i try loh) hahaha!!!

tomolo..

I'm leaving Tomorrow night!!

Still packing my Things half-way.. (haha) Lazy to pack..

erm.. thinking should i bring nano charger and bikini there..

suntan over there !!

I got some kind of feeling tat,

i dun wish leave here now..

cause i'll be missing all my love one over here !!!!

when i was no around ?!? Will them miss me too ?!?

or Who else will miss me ?!?

but....

hey hey !!!!

I'll be back on 23Feb nite...

My evo 7 model

i never dare to hope or wish!!

Nowaday ,

I'm very happy with people's around me & things i did & happen !!

But sometime i really dun dare to ' GIVE in ' any hope or wish for anything or anyone..

What the things has happen is aready past.. ' we've to forgive & forget it !! '

Better dun alway look back.. Must Look forward ... rite!!

i still have a Long Long way to go..

but sometime Just think back ,

of some happy and sweet memories that we use to be !!!

That the only thing that always keep in my mind.

Yes!! I'm too silly !!

Aready past !!

for what, i still remember ..

Actually I've many many thing to say,

but .... is better for me to keep that in my heart only...

without saying out!!!

Maybe i really Dun dare!!!

because I'm a Loser & a Coward !?!?

我们也不知道,

有时候结束也不是我要的结果 !!!!!

Your Seduction Style

Your Seduction Style: The Charismatic

You're beyond seductive, you're downright magnetic! You life live and approach seduction on a grand scale. You have an inner self confidence and energy that most people lack It's these talents that make you seem extraordinary - and you truly are!

What Is Your Seduction Style?

almost forget!!!

Yeah!!!

i receive a Valentine's Present !!

from Someone Very Special !!

THANK YOU!!!

for the present!!!!

I love it !!!

Wishing....

天下友情人

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!!

recap

Haven been writing blog for sometime, is because i busy doing things....

let recap :

Sat :

Meeting darling jamie at far east, I'm late so she went scott to do pedicure while waiting for me... Sori sori...Pai sei.. after that we meet her gallen outside scott... from far far away i see someone acting cool leh wearing sun-glass. waha.. so We headed to Ajisen for our lunch-dinner...
After our meal, we decide to watch I NOT STUPID 2.. so we headed to Lido.. Guess what??!!Smoke are all over the cinema level.. *fire* *fire* ( ^_^" ) so we walked to Cine instead but then they never show Chinese Movie at all.. So 3 of us dunno what to do. Knowing that Laixiang and Tao are at Cine too, so we meet them up.. Headed to Hereen for window shopping. Getting bored, we went to Balcony for a drink.. at the same time, we waited for Kaiqiang.. Phone rang and he told us that he is not meeting us anymore.. Drink,chatted, lots of craps & many many lame-jokes... til 9.45pm.. everyone decided to go home... Me.. no-no is sat leh.. athought i'm tired cos lastnite went 'Dlb o' & somemore tomolo cousin ZHU XIAO DI is coming my hse early in the morning 8am. he wanted my to teach how to bake cookies, he wants to make some for his love one... see so sweet he is?? anyway i dun care i headed to mdm wong... very regert!!! should'nt go!! should go earlier... Mdm wong Sucks.... drink sucks too... music worset... the d-j re-mix the songs badly... after awhile at mdm wong, we really cant stand, so we decide to go devil's , atleast devil's better then mdm wong.... but i'm really tired & oso no mood.. we went of early too.. wanted to go for supper, but last min dun feel going supper so they send me home 1st... Thanks...

BAD-DAY

sun:

ZZzzz...... zzz.. Zzz... early early in the morning 7.30am my phone rang, wa kaoz.... so early!! argh!!! who tat early bird...

me : hello....
zhu : small jie jie!!
me : yes! wru now?? ( i'm closing my eye while talking to him) ZZzzzz... zzZZZzzz...
zhu : i'm at bedok mac, which set meal u want...
me : erm.... buy for me big breakfast lol... ZzzzZZzzz, but change the drink to ice-milo.
zhu : okie!! no prob!!!
me : but u know take wat bus to my place meh?!?!?!?
zhu : no, i dun know..
me : ok, later after u buying the meal call me than i'll link to my place.
zhu : hao de!!!!
me : haha after putting down the phone awhile.. i went back slp.. Zzzzz... the phone rings again.
me : yes,
zhu : ok, i'm coming which bus should i take??
me : ok u go to **** and take bus no.****, and drop down at the 4 stop.. u understand.. when saw a church that bus-stop.. ok!!!
zhu : ok!! i'll call u went i reachin..
me : hao de!!! [ still very blur blur, went back to my dreamland jus awhile only] he called again... I WANTED TO KILL HIM!! argh!!!
zhu : i reach liao..
me : than u cross the road lah.. that take lift-up... okie!!
zhu : ok!!

I'm trying to pull myself up the bed.. argh!!!so i start to teach him how to bake the cookies, after that making the shape of the cookies, as usual , we come out with jokes.. make me laugh & laugh.. haha.. althought in my mind i'm thinking others, atleast laugh can make me stop thinking awhile.... I also help him to pack the cookies with a very nice wrapping paper which he bring.. but no ribbon's... luckly i've ribbon's...

after every things is done!! is ard 12plus. he also wanted to buy flower's for other person's ??
Zhen Hong , u better dun 一心两意 , this is what i always say want.. after wash-up i bring him to bedok get the flower...

after that i headed to bugis to meet Lai xiang, i wanted to get a car model... heehee..bugis dun have.. so headed to suntec.. "hobby shop" yes.. i gotta myself a EVO-7 leh... we walk around awhile than i headed home... doing the model... till 3am plus... but is almost done!!! So happy...

Tired Day & No mood & Sadness..

Mon:
Blue again... wahaha.. this friday i'm leaving lol....
the happy thing i did was i finish the model in 2 day only leh wahaha.... so happy...

HAPPY

all pic will update later....

HOME

Another summer day
Is come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aerorplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
But this was not your dream
But you always believe in me

Another winter day has come And gone away
And even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Oh, let go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

Yes!! i Did it!!

No Mc today, haha..

high last nite but enjoy..

thanks Tat "fellow guys"... But 4get his name liao.. WAhaHa!!!

me , kathy, cynthia.... had lots fun last nite

but we went back 12.30am like tat, cos next day we've to work .

sighs... went i reach home i vomit sia... becos i never eaten my dinner..

Oh ya!! they're Lots of 大叔 & 大婶 at there..

Omg!! wat happen??

suddenly Uncle's & auntie's go clubbing sia....

& also alots of 肉 cai's (*in hokkien)

wahaha...

and no Guy's there..

Some convert with cynthia :

cyn : so yellow, tonight want to look for BF's here.. me & kat, our bf is from here.. haha

yel : no thanks, haha..

cyn : our bf from here not bad wat!!!

yel : i know.. But i get the worset want.. leh... so i dun wan lah.. single better..

yel : some more tonite, no one can make it wan leh... haha!!!

On 9/2/2005

lastnite after work last min went tampines alone, go there do my nail & some shopping.. Than I call "SOMEONE" check where she is.. haha!! she's at tampines too.. who she's , Joyce lah.. after my nail is done!! meet them at coffee bean for coffee than heading home ard 10plus..
busy this coming few week... Shit lah got 1 bad news.. My boss dun approve my leave leh.. But i just dun care, cause air-ticket aready book.. Hurhurhur.. cannot change liao..
=R
tonite meeting my Dao Tao Kathy, we're going to Dbl O..
I promise tonite, i wont get myself high again...
No No No... no more MC for tomolo...

i want this!!

I want this....

Can i Have this....Pls... wahaha!!!

pls... =P

什么是幸福 ?!?!

幸福是 :

两个真真相爱的人

可以在一起!!

我真真爱的人,

在哪里???

last nite...

last nite after work went sakura for dinner , is on our Vendor treat.. wahaha..

i never eat much thing ... after i finish eating, everyone is still contiune eating & talking.. than I run off.. to tampines to get some small Gift's for my Darling & Dao Tao's As valentine's Gift's ba..

Dun say liao.. "SOmeOne" never get anything for me... U Know who U R huh!! humph!!! wahaaha... later Knock off i still have help u to go Stock-Up... humph.. ya.. buying again... but i still have 5 packet haven finish yet... Nb price Up again... SHit man!!! I must quit liao... wahaha..

my body is very weak nowaday..

On & Off running nose, cough, headache.... kaoz...

Not only my brain Spoil... my Body spoil...

I been asking myself what I want??? who i need???

should i keep it to myself or should i say it out!!!

Valentine's Day

My Valentine's Day....

Althought i DO no have any lover or bf!!!!!??

but... I'll celebrate with my love ones too..

This coming friday, meeting Kathy for dinner

after dinner we'll be heading to Dbl o ,

meet joyce there too..

sat meeting

my Darling 'Jamie'

Place haven out yet..

erm...

but I really hope next tue 14/2/2006 ,

I can meet someone that I still love & care for...

haha who??

Movie ??

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*** Maybe we really dun noe what we actually want....

& sometime when after we lose someone ,

we than realize How important that person ARE!!!

Maybe that person is still waiting for u to come back...

But u dun realize it only...

Astrology

Daily Love for February 07, 2006

Daily Singles:

• You're happy to keep an old relationship in the past, but you're tempted to find out what your old flame is up to. Before you pick up the phone, remind yourself of why the relationship ended. Do you want more of that?

Abit Quite True...

why?? we alway choose wrg!!

Why??

We always Love the Wrong preson...

WHy ???

We alway love to choose the person, tat love to hurts us deeply!!!!!

for what.. some people's told me tat

u've to choose the right person who love u more than u do..

but......

For Girl : we always choose person that we really love...

no matter wat tat person did before !!

we'll just forgive & forget!!

&

we'll still continue love him as much as before...

we'll just Wait for him to come back...

but ....

For Guy : They'll choose girls who love them more than they do???

and if they did somethings wrong..

they wont face the wrong!!!

cos they're face is Very important than whatever things...

& some will think tat wat past has past..

maybe there's a chance!!

but some will, JUST give up the chance

instead of trying!!!!

Monday...

Blue... blue...

bluee.... Blue.....

My mood swing.....

Dun ask me ... why!!!

I just feel so down today.......

how come i feel so lonely today....

Is Monday BLUE!!!!!

I dislike Monday...

i have to cut those thing..

I Need to :

cut down clubbing....

cut down eating....

cut down drinking...

cut down S***ing....

cut down Shopping....

cut down sleeping...

cut down bloging...

cut down thinking...

movie!!!

anyone free!!!!

I want to go for a movie.....

i wanted to watch "Match Point" & "Fun With Dick & Jane"

pic of Jay

recap

Let do some recap for past few dayz & nitez,

Fri nite was at Dlb o & i almost goin gone case.. stay out with someone fm 4am till 9am the next day morning.. wahaha.. & i never go work .. have some talk with him .. got one part i almost tears out ((but he dun noe)) but i force myself ... no ... i cant cry.. oh ya!! i think i did something !! on the nite my many many years back ex bf called me !!!! nbcb !! wat the fucking hell he want ... & i also forget wat i have say to him tat nite... fm Sat afternoon he keep calling me.. but i dun wan to answer at all ... but at jamie hse he call again jamie help me to pick up ... then he say want to meet me.. nb.. he want to let people mis-understand tat i'm his Mistress .... rite !!! so angry !!! & pls save it lah i wont meet u want...

Sat meet Lai Xiang at cityhall , den we went down to yishun , Ham fetching us from Yishun to Hillview (my Darling hse) dinner was at Jamie hse ... nice food prepare by her mum ... Thanks auntie for ur ang bao & foods ... but i never had much cos i'm Bloody Sleepy ... almost fell asleep at Jamie hse... the guys r playing MJ, Me & xiang watching tv till i tear out because of that sad story... but heng ar.. no one know only xiang saw it.. waha!!! Half way of dinner Jessie called me!! cos her ah boy going ang mo kio.... then she wanted to join us at jamie hse... oh !! and also we have a "suprise" for MR Blur!! a Birthday Cake for him .. it's he's bday !!!!! After eating we're planning where should we GO later!! at 1st we're planning to go MOS but we change to Party World @ Tanjong Pagar singing session from 11pm plus till 3am plus, at ktv jessie keep saying about ah soon & my things... I'm very tired to hear this kind of things... but i'm not in mood to talk back lah.... watever the fuck u all wan to say just go ahead lah..." I cant be bother anymore" ... i fell asleep at the ktv room... wahaha... so sleepy mah..

after ktv meet someone at 85 market, but the stall there closed so early nowaday... so went other place with him for our supper, after tat he drive me home.. oh thanks..

sun wake up very early in the morning when mum saw me , she was so shock!! how come wake up i so early today... wahaha!!! cos i alway sleep till very late every sunday!!! Meet joyce at tampines... we had our lunch at tampines mall & coffee till 3 plus cos both of us fell so sleepy... so we went back early.. reach home around 4plus mum was baking cookies again but i'm super sleepy i fall in to my bed till 8plus went granny's hse for dinner...

oh ya!!! i taken some pic fri & sat will update later...

I'm not tat strong

Maybe everyone will find that i'm better than before... wat i can say is U'RE wrong.... or i'm just acting strong outside only.... & no one know wat my mind is thinking... dun ask me, myself also dun know at all.... wat the fuck i want and i need.... haiz.... who the hell in my mind..... but wat if , there's a chance or wat?? will u give or give up the chance... i been thinking, i feel that my heart, has no one can replace someone at all... maybe is i alway put in too much... end up get hurt.... i really scared....

My ex bf called me last nite wanted to mit me.... kaoz... wtf he want.... ccb, he's ready marry and still wanted to mit me......& i dun wan to be a 坏人...
Really very hard to understand a guy mind thinking.... i think that they're face, is more important than a chance....

sigh...

wat to do?? this wat we always say is life!!!!

People will met they're love one, but that person is just beside them, they just choice to leave... why???why??? this is what i alway cant understand want!!! why?? why?? ya... i love to ask WHY??? WHY??? Life's is so unfair to me... & is always so unfair to me....

BIG TIME... Sigh!!!

It's a big-time to be back at work YTD after a long but not long break. Since Ytd i been complain to everyone, that i'm Very Boring!!! Real boring!! and bloody sianz.... @ work...

it had been a tiring day.

Maybe because past few never sleep well... & going everywhere to collect Ang bao...

Lastnite i had a dream... Someone appear in my dream... who?? haha...

(solongihadneverdreamofhimwhynowadayheappearinmydreamagainhowcome)

Tomolo goin to my darling house for dinner.... i going to make some agar agar and top shell for her, as she request for mine top shell too.... heehee

But tomolo my house have lion dance, Should wait for the lion dance to come or Not??? Wat if i wait it'll be very rush for me to rush to jamie house leh.....

Wat to do?? wat to do???

Jus see how lah tomolo....

13 more days to go..... Perth I Am coming... hahaha

Pan Duo La

missing...

Jay

nice

how my holiday past

Day 1 of CNY'S
1st i went was my granny's hse. ya stay there waiting for my Ang Bao to come into my pocket.. wahaha... then nite went to sin ming ah bi hse for Casino Time : Xiang, Tao, Ham, Soon, Jamie, Gallen, Hui Zhen.... was there too. Awhile later T2 & Tai wei came too.. and of cos i went back with T2 & Taiwei... but after Lizhen hse we went supper at Simpang Bedok...
stay collecting my Ang Bao...

Day 2 of CNY'S
Went to My Relative & cousin , fren house at Bukit Batok, Chua Chu Kang, Bedok, Pasir Ris, Orchard for Lalala session at K-box with joyce & frens till 1.00am after that went supper again... Oh No!! No more supper for me pls....... wahaha!!!
more Ang Bao coming in...

Day 3 of CNY'S
Relative hse again...went Yio Chu Kang, Boon Lay, IMM, Sangkang " jessie for another casino time" ...

Day 4 of CNY'S
Today!! emr... I have Nowhere to go... I'm so tired and boring ... cos tomolo have to go back to work liao.... Sianz arh!!!! Maybe becos last nite reach home around 4 am ba.. slp till 2pm then wake up... and now i'm at granny hse.... doing nothing... sian sian.... Holiday is going to Over soon...

Why everyone love to gamble during CNY??