Angry Angry....

A busy day for me again..... althought i'm busy everyday.... but i alway feel something weird..... How come my mind keeping me... Thinkin and thinkin.... of @!~%^&*$#!$%?><^&*()_+=- I am really very tired!!!! for wat i'm doing now.... I really NEED>>>>> GIVE ME A BREAK!!!! pls.... pls.....

You're Really Special

YoU'rE SoMeOnE ReAlLy SpEcIaL....

We Can't choose the people we work with,

but sometimes we have the good fortune

to wind up with someone special...

the way i did with you.

It makes such a difference in my day,

just knowing that you'll be there.

Your way looking at things

helps me put them in perspective.

Your sense of humor always gives me a lift.

I feel that i was really lucky getting someone to work with who turned out be...

a really good friend of mine....

"Ms Theng Aui Lee"

but too bad, u have Resign since beginner of the year....really miss thoese days we work together..

u really teach me alot and treat me as a small sis to u...

anyway All the best for ur career.....

and me i still planning....

thinkin...

i'm very sad, Working here...

Just now i cal my ex.collage to ask her something...
Talk till my tears drop... :( haiz...
feel very very sad, i'm so with my boss and company i'm working with now.... & also no point working here anymore...
i really totally give up ... now my mind keep thinking ,
i better faster clear everything on my hand..
than end of the years i can get out of this company.....

YES, I WANT TO QUIT !!!!!!

But the problem is...

• Wat if i really going resign!!

• What i'm going to do??

• I have to think of this before i resign......

• Am i going study or go learn something useful......

I........ Been ...... Thinking ........ Thinkin .......

thinkin ...... tHiNkInG ...... ..... ........ Thinking..... ..... .........

thinking......

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Thinking........ Thinkin.....

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tHiNkInG...

Thinking...... ........ ......

Thinkin......

he never come again!!!

Today wake up at 2plus... than never go anywhere.. cos doing some office work at home... while waitting for someone to collect back his things from me... but he never come again... wft man... damn angry lol...make me wait for him the whole day... I Really don't wish to keep that with me anymore...... pls pls come take it!!!!!!!!!!!!! A.S.A.P....

my prog on 27/8/2005

In the afternoon, After work i went to meet hui zhen and della.. at hui zhen hse coffeeshop there... so we have our lunch at blk 539... sit at coffeeshop... tok tok laugh laught for awhile then went home... while on the way walkin to huizhen hse, Reaching.. to her lift there... Guess who i saw... hahaha... " i saw Ham" there!!! =0 He look like very stress & damn tired lol & Look yee..yee.. haha.. at the 1st place, i called him... he was very blur.. then i tok tok to him awhile... after that i went home... Than evening time went interview with lizhen, mit her 6.30pm.. I reach 1st, So have to wait for her... lol.. then we go look for the place for interview... and the both of us, walk here walk there, walk up and down all the ways.. Oh My God!! We Really cant find the place... And We're really "lost"..... Anyone out there for help!!!! but at last min we have found the place liao, when we reach the place, time is ard 7.15pm+++... hahaha... Oh no.... But this place was quite nice and new.. System there super best lor.. heehee =P let her try to work here 1st.. if they still need part-time for 2-3day like that.. Maybe i'm going there to work too... =) haha... Someone going to be late lol... Cos she's workin at 8pm tonight... and now the time is ard 7.40 plus... But.. we still haven eaten our dinner yet.... so after the interview.... SO We asked tai wei to come fetch us.... Of cos he say Ok lah!!! haha... haha... ", EVO 9 lei... =x After that we went makan at coffeeshop near lizhen work place opp... cos cant go anywhere else... cos she's late... So.... we have our dinner at there.... with tai wei , li zhen , jian chong, jan (ah chong gf) and of cos mee..... But... the food there not very nice lol... After our dinner, They still went to other place.... to eat again ??? with ah beng (beng huat) but i never go.. i went to find lizhen @ her work place.. haha.. cos kai qiang is comin to fetch me.... to go devil's cos i can sign him in...lah.. while waiting for kai qiang to come down fetch me... @ her work place... I'm so boring lei... so i think, to start singing some songs.. la... la... la... la... la... la... la... la... la... la... some more got one table of people keep singing, like open they're own concert like that lor... kaoz... bi and me cant stand lol... hee...hee.... =S then kai qiang come at ard 10plus... then tok tok awhile, then we went devil's ard 11.30plus ba... cos we that mr ah hui there 11.30 then he reach ard 12plus.. Here's the whole nite jokes : More then one person is wearing the same T-Shirt that ah hui wearing last nite.... hahaha!! We saw one was at devil's another was at sultan... haha!!! like Uniform like that... & he keep on kana disturb by a crazy gal... hahaha!! So poor thing ... =x last nite devil's so so la... not really very nice there... all the people there really become a Devil... Maybe thats why, called devil's ba.. then saw someone look like my pri sch fren... WENDY CHEW!!! but never cal her... i keep looking at her... she also look at me... the thing is we never talk... cos i scare i saw the wrong person... watever la... than i oso saw vivian (git fren) she called me , ask me i know who is she.. erm... i cant remember her too.. then she say ure Ma****w gf rite... then i reply now i'm not... than she say i know i hear it from git.. kaoz.. yet she know liao.. she still ask... wtf** man.. then ard 3.30am we went off.. went supper at sultan and i mit my cousin at there.... cos she went mdm wong with jin hong...haha.. than after that ham send us home... he send my cousin home 1st then after tat me... I'm SO TOUCH!!!! =X Thank you very much !!! ham.... cos i know u're tired too... heehee =X and now while i'm doing my office work... at home... so boring.. than write somethings about ytd.. haha.. and while i'm waitin for someone to cal and take his things from me.. 1 sept comin.... yeah yeah yeah!!!!!! Guess who will win the super star wei lian or kelly ??? Mostly must be kelly but who's know.... Maybe wei lian too cos his a black horse !!!

Today my dinner is curry chicken!! yeah!!

Today dinner is curry chicken.... haha....haha
ah ma cooking curry chicken for mi tonite......
yummy... yummy...

and now i'm very full...... haha..
and just finish my dinner at ah ma hse...just reach home awhile....

erm..now thinking later going anywhere ...
later wat to wear...heehee ... =X
I ALSO DONT KNOW!!!!
still waitin for my frens phone call... but some of them is askin me to go "momo" ..."MOMO" again better not.. cos but i'm still thinkin !!!
cause my mum niam me liao...
cos she say that i have black circle on my eyes....@_@
oh no .... shitz... what should i do....how can this thing happen to me!!! arh!!!

Ytd i was very happy cause my dao tao no.2 confirm with me that she have the ticket for the super star final....yeah man tats mean i'm going to watch with her " live " lei.... is on 1sept.... so happy happy.... Somemore free and best seat and best view... she the best.... siao liao the 2 of us sure go crazy on tat nite...

Joyce wo ai shi ni le.....
opps...later her der saw this sure come kill me.... hahaha
but i dont scare lei... I'm her dao tao too... =>

Sweet Memory

Sweet Memory

Walking alone
I see a shadow on the ground
My heart pounding Turning,
the shadows gone As the winds blows
I hear your voice
Looking around You are nowhere to be seen
Closing my eyes I feel the heat of your touch
I feel your breath with the touch of your lips
I jump at the touch of your fingertips
I open my eyes and I cry
For you are gone
just a sweet memory

BIG NEWS from my dao tao no.2

That day at msn dao tao no.2 tok me , she say maybe have the ticket to go watch super star final lei... 0f cos she got ask me want to go watch anot......

of cos i WANT TO WATCH....
Free wan some more...hahahah

yeah... yeah...

wahahaha...

WEI LIAN

JIA YOU....

JIA YOU....

Ah ma I LOVE YOU LOVE YOU...and thank u

Ah ma "Wo Ai Ni" thank u alot....
Guess what!! tonite after dinner at my ah ma hse... ah ma cook bird nest for me to eat... see how nice she was..
when i was a baby girl she look after me till now she still so worry about me...
i love her more than i love my mama...
she been worry about my health this few month..
i'm sorry to make her so worry...

I'm very stress at work...now i not happy at all !!!

Wat should i DO???????????
anyone can help me.....
I been working this company for 5 years plus...
At 1st i was very happy with this company but slowly my best pal and collage left....now leave me alone doing a/c things....i'm damn stress...i feel like walk in my boss office tel him i dun want to work anymore....

STRESS !!!!

STRESS !!!!

STRESS !!!!

OMG......i going crazy soon.....

SOMEONE

Someone To ...

A shoulder to cry on when I am sad,
someone to blame when I am mad
someone to wipe away my tears
someone to chase away my fears
someone to walk with, talk with and share fun days…
But when we grow up, we'll go our separate ways.

THATS YOUR FRIEND...

chat wif him at msn

Have some chat with him just now... this week end his coming to take the PSP changer....the changer is with for 1 month plus... at the 1st place i doesnt wan to return him cos...if i return him i wont see him again....but after thinkin for sometime i choice to return him...cos the changer with me oso no point.... actually he want to come take on th 7/8/2005 but he cant make it...

but also not confirm his coming to take... but really hope come and take this... i don't wan to keep this with me anymore...

boring boring boring

Oh My God.....
Could anyone help me to get out of here.....

Sometimes it just slips away

Sometimes it just slips away

And I'm left with yesterday

Left with the memories of you and me..

I'll always think of you and smile

And be happy for the time

I still hold on not to you or me,

but to us

There's just no sadder word to hear

And it's sad to walk away

With just the memories

Who's to know what might have been

We left behind a life and time

We'll never know again...

on 20/8/2005 shopping,clubbing and eating...

On 20/8/2005-
I meet jessie & ah bi at orchard ard 5.30pm, but actually i thot of meeting jessie at 4.30 but i over slept (HAHAHA) shhhh..."she dun know".. & actually my place here, never Rain at all..heehee ", ...is that lazy to go out so early....than i reach somerest mrt cos i drop at wrong stop..actually should drop down at orchard..
but F**king cok lor,wahaha...cos i so my pri school fren...we have a tok...TOK TOO MUCH so become blur...
thats why..

After reaching somerest call our "lau lian hua"
wa kaoz.. she haven reach yet...thot i was the one late...heehee...
than after we went shopping...tat day i bought alots of thing.... a few pcs of cloth and my levis jean cost me $169.00...damn chio...after tat nite we go MOMO but before we went momo they go boat quay top up...hahaha...

so mi , bi , jessie and we meet serene there...So we went to the risk...of cos i top up lah...i only can drink ice water...so after they top up finish we take cab down so...when we drop down the cab,is around 10plus ba... than u know what happen....i fall down...Ass h***...heng ar...serene was beside me...if not i sure fell on the floor...Wat happen to me...Tat i was so unlucky lor that nite...

Name's list : MOMO nite on 20/08/2005

• Our big sister's of LIAN Hua ( Jessie Loh )
• Her size is small but she's damn hot when she dance ( ah Bi )
• Pretty & sexy & figuer F****** good.. ( Sheevone )
• when she reach momo she can start dance all the way ( serene )
• Than saw : $9.50, JJ, CAKE, HAM at momo also..

Suddenly i'm not feeling well very dizzy..Thot of goin home..but we went to makan at lau pa sak...guess What i fell down again...this time really really heng ar.. ham beside me....heng ar he got catch me...if not i dun knw where am i....maybe i'm gone away liao...heng ar...after reach home ard 5.30am than do some wash up...than chat wif ah bi till around 6.00am..

Actually i can heard what she saying on the phone, But is tat i'm damn tired so never tok...Maybe is bcos i never slp well at all past few week..everyiite i will wake up...i oso dun know why....maybe i'm too stress at work...but my leg damn pain the next day and i'm so tired too....

"" # "" 3 ""

I AM WITH YOU ALWAYS I may not be there with you but someone special is.. If we Him all our loneliness we'll know the burden's His.. Know that He is there as well as here with me.. Holds and comforts us in His arms gently.. He fills the empty space that separates the miles.. Just to know about this should fill our hearts with smiles.. I Missing You !!!

LOVE # 2

What is love

what is love?
love is a feeling quite hard to describe,
a desirable pain locked away inside
even though the pain can torture our hearts
we strive to find this emotion so
loneliness
doesn’t tear us apart

come back to me

Title: please come back to me Looking in your eyes I feel a great joy holding you in my arms I feel a great peace and so losing you I feel a great pain boy I'm so sorry please come back to me cause I Still love you... and i'm still waiting for you to come back..

~~ Poems ~~

~~ When you love someone ~~ When you love someone so deep inside, It seems like it's so easy to hide. You've loved him for so very long, You would think he could do no wrong. Every day you would hope and pray, That he would always stay this way. He treated you like you should be treated, You thought your life was finally completed. You thought your love was growing true, And then one day it was all so blue. He started putting you down and it hurt, You thought all you were to him was dirt. He started ignoring you and you wondered why, All you wanted to do was curl up and die. You thought your relationship would never end, But that was all so fake and pretend. One night he was so sweet to you, You thought all those things were maybe untrue, Two days later he was back the same, You thought you were the one to blame. He thought the relationship was getting too serious And that you had become a little too curious. By this time you knew it wouldn't last, All the nice things he said were in the past. You thought that you would marry him some day, But this time God wanted to get his way. You wanted things back how they were before, But you knew this couldn't happen anymore. It was a Saturday night about ten o'clock, You heard the news and it wasn't a shock. You knew this was going to happen soon, As you laid there and cried in the pale lit moon.

went breko on 18/8/2005

tonite went to breko with my dao tao & other....before tat we catch a movie..."the maid".....abit scary la....
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of cos mi and my dao tao got take pic when we at breko..
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and we went to a bookshop....dao tao bought a book name...

"Happiness Now"....

of cos inside of this book have lots of meaningful words...after i reading this book....my mind goes clear...i know wat to do.....NEXT...
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When Life gets tough.....
How do you survive when life get tough??
How do you hang on when you are grieving, lonely or broke??

Why think postive??
When things go wrong, Remember : It's not what happens to you that matters most.....
It's how you think about what happens to you...

Friends and Money
" Make me HaPpY "
" I Love YoU "
Other People's ReLaTiOnShIps
PrEsEnTs


Relationships
Relationship are tricky!


The strategies we think should work, Don't Work....
The strategies we think won't work, Do work....

Trying to change PeOpLe....
Trying to change people is MOSTLY a BaD IdEa!!! Why??
Because it doesn't work.. You get frustrated and they have you...
Positive change is a natural process...
Frequently it unfolds like this :

Step 1 : Stupidity, followed by
Step 2 : Disaster
Step 3 : Desperation, and finally
Step 4 : Wisdom

I LOVE YOU

Little things i should have said and done I just never took the time you were alway on my mind.....

Having a big time at work.....coming this few week and days..gotta to be very busy at work and stress at work.....sighs.....

BIG TIME arh...arh...sianz....

what to do??? have to go on.. work and work.....stress arh...
I MUST WORK HARD...sighs....and of cos ENJOY TOO.....

Love # 1

Afterbelievers

Love is like your shadow,
stop trying to chase after it,
because it'll run away from you.
Learn hard to walk away from it than it'll come after you.

MY LOVELY ah ma and me...

This pic taken few years back ..... my ah ma and me...parkway

My PAST few week prog..

My PAST few week prog..
on 5/8/2005 - Went momo wif jillia and her collage...
- Actually we say go back at 1230am but...
We stay till 1am..
- Saw mei zhen there and James(mu) there too....

Jillia & Mi....Pic taken @ momo toilet...nice & chio rite..er i mean the background lah... wahahaha... (",)
on 6/8/2005 - Went to momo again wif lizhen(ah bi),
joyce(dao tao no.2), ah ming ,ah hui($9.50),
kathy(dao tao no.1),julian , james(batman),
Shevonne, Clarris (APPLE) & other....
i meet kathy , joyce and ah bi for dinner ard 6pm at "black bird road"-((read it hokkien)) mean 'orchard road'...but EVERYONE was late only my dearest dao tao no.1 ""kathy"" came early...wow...cant believe she wasnt late...she came early..hahaha.."Am i dreaming"..this was the 1st time when we meet her, she came early...er...cos she was always the one always late for our date..she rubber timer..
we went to eat dinner at cein...went to sushi..than ah bi came late...
but when she reach she keep on scolding &^%#&^%$.. bi arh..please behave urself pls...

Pic taken after our dinner
by "POH KIT CHAN"...(she saw this she sure kill me..) guess who is poh kit chan..hahaha ",
everyone was damn full lol..
after dinner still early...so we slack at orchard...
that nite i went few a place...after momo went "double o" cos everyone is goin back to meet they're boy..left me alone at momo so i went double o find my frenz...in the 1st place i thot he wasnt not there..i walk in than i find that he was there...but who's know.. ((i saw him there)).... than at 1st he never talk to me at all ((maybe he was still angry...cos before tat he had a fight!!))....
git told me something that i feel so sad and so heart break lol...i keep tryin control my tears...cant let them see i'm cryin..CANNOT!!!


that nite so many idiot come and talk to me...but i never make a damn at all lor...maybe i'm not in a good mood..from last month till now still same..
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WHAT's git SAY :
git : yellow, i know u r a nice gal?
yellow : i was thinking am i a nice gal...if yes...
why he still choice to leave me...
git : yellow dun worry...
yellow : i jus keep quite...
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WHY GUY"S LIKE TO PICK UP GIRL"S
WHEN THEY GO CLUBBING?
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than i saw him talking wif his fren very close..than i told git i make a move 1st..
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than when to a place call ""RUSH"" i still cant believe i went in THERE...all the way techno.. ~!#$%^&*()_ some more scolding all ah beng and ah lian things... but when i walk in remind of the canto times....funny & sweet memorys...but after rush...i went back double o find him.. jus bcos he say...he already drunk...why am i still worry about him...than after tat we when supper wif git cousin and his sis's...
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and all his frenz all giving me a funny look...they thot we still together....but no more....
they all also find too SUDDENLY....
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brother brandon-know at SOS

Still remember this guy out there..he's one of my bro's.. know him from S.O.S days ((now momo)).....haha...few years back when we went to SOS...than know a group of guys...here's one of them...but after since SOS...we never meet up...maybe everyone is busy with they're own things...but funny thing is me and tis bro brandon still in contact, & sometime he'll try call me and i'll try to msg... But I'm so touch.... is today i saw the two photo that he send me...damn meaningful lor.... pic no.1 saying tat : Giving someone all your Love is never an assurance that they will love you back Do not expext Love is return Just wait for it to grow in their Heart But if it does not Be content that it grew in yours pic no.2 saying : " If you want something badly, let it go. If it's comes back to you, then it's going to be yours forever. If it doesn't then it's never going to be your..." I'm so touch...when is saw this 2pic... ..... ... .. . But lastly ...dun worry i will be fine one day... find 1 day come out for coffee..ok.. ""uncle brandon"" haha ", ******** ****** **** *** *** ** * I know my Life's, Still have to go on.... with or without him.. *** Life's is short & we really don't know What will happen few mins later.. ****so enjoy our Life's Don't worry!! I WILL BE FINE ONE DAY

The 3 Dao Tao in town again...hahaha

from left : Joyce ( mi dao tao no.2 )

from right : kathy ( mi dao tao no.1 )

9/8/2005 SAD

on 9/8/2005 Whole DAY stayin at home... This national day....is the most sad day for me...Bcos everyone was celebrate and enjoy the holiday... but me....In my heart i still feel pain....but he doesnt knw at all... I still remember someone did promise me say he'll bring me go watch fireworks....too bad he didnt.. maybe he aready forget wat he say....but every single words he say i still remember in my mind... In the afternoon my auntie and cousin came to my grandmother hse...they saw me... Know what they say... WHAT HAPPEN TO YOU??? XIN... U getting more and more silm... R U ok.. actually im not ok at all.. but wat to do life's still have to go on..

on 9/8/2005 Whole DAY stayin at home... This national day....is the most sad day for me...Bcos everyone was celebrate and enjoy the holiday... but me....In my heart i still feel pain....but he doesnt knw at all... I still remember someone did promise me say he'll bring me go watch fireworks....too bad he didnt.. maybe he aready forget wat he say....but every single words he say i still remember in my mind... In the afternoon my auntie and cousin came to my grandmother hse...they saw me... Know what they say... WHAT HAPPEN TO YOU??? XIN... U getting more and more silm... R U ok.. actually im not ok at all.. but wat to do life's still have to go on..

Love Advice

Love Advice

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~~ OVER It's OVER ~~

~~ IT���s Really OVER ~~ We never really said our Goodbyes Yet I am alone with tears in my eyes Crying at the memory of a love now gone As I face each new day that dawns In the dark night thoughts whirl round my brain It's hard to believe that I'll never see you again The song on the radio cries out in pain It's over, it's over It's late and I'm with my memories alone We drink to forget the coming dawn As tears to my eyes just swarm Time to let the hurt perform Maybe I will close my eyes and dream Of a time we were in each others arms Safe from everyday harms Giving ourselves up to loves charms Maybe I should stick to just dreaming As there you can feel you are beaming Real love hurts I have discovered Goodbye Lover 1 month over...i feel the same